Updated: Feb 28, 2020
Many have asked me, "why did you want to convert to Islam?" Sometimes, I would also be asked “did you convert because of your Malay husband?” I will humour them with my replies: “My husband is not so handsome la that I convert because of him”.
Tracing back to my "searching" journey, it started when I was a little girl in Kindergarden two. I desperately wanted to enrol myself in one of the Buddhist’s primary schools a few streets away from my old house. I was upset when my mum transferred me to a different primary school. Deep inside me, I hadn't given up searching for the creator. When I grew older, I started to notice nature around me. I asked myself "why does the sun rise every morning and the moon only appear at night?" To some, it's science. But I was searching for the creator, the original source.
Time passed, and one day, I met a Malay boy at a bus-stop. Little did I know, he would become my husband. At that time, we were strangers. But somehow, we were neighbours. Our home, and office, were a street away. Thus, we used to take the same bus. God always let's you meet someone at the right place at the right time. I started to know Islam through this Malay boy that I met at the bus-stop. I learned more about Islam after attending classes at Darul Arqam. Deep in my heart, I knew that I found the most merciful creator. He also answered my prayers by finding me a simple and humble man in my life.
Allah says: “Take one step towards me, I will take ten steps towards you. Walk towards me, I will run towards you.” On my solemnization day (Nikah), I couldn't stop my tears from falling as the religious teacher mentioned the name of god several times.
Sometimes I think my friends must have been wondering if I cried because I finally got myself married. In all honesty, in my life, I have never experienced so many beautiful things. Owning a humble house with my soulmate, to see many guests coming to give their blessings. I was touched.
I know that whatever good or bad are all given by you, the gracious creator. My faith continues to grow stronger, day by day. I listened to the signs you have given. I slowed down my pace to regain my health. I freed myself from a full-time job to spend more time with my mother and my growing daughter. You fulfilled my dream by sending me Angels to help me in Loveaisyah's journey. I would not have come so far without your love and mercy for me. No words can describe how much I love you, my greatest creator.